a state of mind that is very familiar to me standing as I do in a cultural crossroads.

Which complicates matters, of course. Personally, I have problems with aspects of the Christian tradition, mostly to do with misogyny, but I think it's easier to argue with a tradition you were born into but want to remain part of than with one you knew first from the outside.

I think the only thing one can do, though, is try to follow truth as far as you can see it. I don't think any God who rejected someone for that, even if what they perceived as truth was objectively wrong, would be worth giving the time of day to, let alone worshiping.